Que Sera, Sera

I really do not understand what i've been worrying about these few days. Recent nights, i go to bed feeling very tired but once my head hit the pillow, many thoughts fill my head. And overwhelming, random feelings come with it. Sudden happiness and sudden sadness. Its like, i'm going crazy or something. Usually toss and turn in bed for about one and a half hour before sleeping. It's becoming a routine since after the holidays. Nearly could'nt wake up for classes this morning. And then in the afternoon, i'll be dead tired that i have to sleep for an hour.

Besides, I can't seem to find back the drive i had before and during the last exam. It's so frustrating. Was emo-ing for a full hour in class before finally managing to smile again. So unlike my character. Sigh. Wonder how long will it take for this feeling to pass? Is it because of that matter? Or is it a stage of growing up? If it is because of that matter, I guess i must learn to cast my feelings aside at least till i've come to a decision. And if it is a stage of growing up, can i not grow up? My last explanation for this is that i really am going crazy. Well, if this is the case, i guess it'll be easier for me. Just send me to the mental hospital? No need to lead such a stressful life. Muahahaa. Anyway, i guess i'm really me again. At least for now.

Just mere rantings. Come to think of it, que sera, sera. And that shall be my theme for today. It's spanish for 'what must come, will come'. I'll just have to take it as it goes.

For now.

ps. the haze here is real BAD.
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Signing off,
a happier me.

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We may encounter many defeats but we must not be defeated.

- Maya Angelou